It was becoming clear to me that I shouldn't bother to get too attached to anything.

You've already won me over in spite of me
And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet
Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are
I couldn't help it; It's all your fault.

She turned and said "it's times like these that I wish I was a believer, so I could do something to give me hope. Something to make me believe in anything at all."

i want to dive head first into your arms,
give into your good looks and charms.
sleep all day and love all night.
forgive every stupid, petty fight.
i want to do more than sit and remember.
i want to relive all the moments where you made me shiver.

I wonder how you feel and where you are. Ten minutes is a life time and I just, I just want to know why you were the one to say goodbye.

Just know that I'll come running,
for one more night to spare with you
This is where I'm meant to be,
please don't leave me
[a day to remember]

Because lately, I just keep hearing people blame love. But love doesn't walk away, people do

Little lines and cracks around your eyes and mouth,
something's trying to get in, something's trying to get out.
It's okay to be a little broken.

i decided, very early on, just to accept life unconditionally;
i never expected it to do anything special for me, yet i seemed
to accomplish far more than i had ever hoped. most of the time
it just happened to me without me ever seeking it.
[audrey hepburn]

I think love is a rare thing in the world.
If you think you can have it with this girl,
then fuck whoever tries to stop you and
fuck the rules. Take the risk and
do whatever you can do and try not to
get caught. If you do get caught, do it again.
[A Million Little Pieces]

Cause like you said, this is it. This is life. And I'm in
love with you. I think that's the only thing I've ever
really been sure of in my entire life.

It seems like the simplest concept:
just push everyone away, and you'll never get hurt.
However, the simplest isn't always the most effective.
Someday, someone is going to find their way in,
and they're going to leave you on your knees.

What they call love is a risk,
cause you will always get hit out
of nowhere by some wave and
end up on your own.
[Brand New]

And sometimes when your mind gets going, you just can't seem to get it to stop.
It's like never-ending spinning, going around and around, thinking about those
things you don't really want to know about yourself. But you can't get it to stop.
The thoughts just clog your mind, your every movement. You can't do anything
without thinking, and eventually, you just don't want to think anymore, but really,
it's all you've got.

As for you, my galvanized friend, you want a heart. You don't know how lucky you are not to have one. Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable.

Why long for things if they're not meant to be ours?

The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home.

It's a funny thing about coming home. Looks the same, smells the same, feels the same. You'll realize what's changed is you.

Loving you is worth everything to me.

That night we talked, we talked about life, about our times together.
Maybe we aren't the same two kids we once were, but some things
never change. Some things last, and even though I didn't know what
was going to happen to us or where we were going, I just knew
I couldn't let you out of my life.

Beginnings are usually scary and endings are usually sad, but it's everything in between that makes it all worth living.

"I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw. I'm scared of what I did, of who I am. And most of all... I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life, the way I feel when I'm with you."

As for being patient with fate and all, it's getting old. And my mind is slowly changing.

Poets often describe love as an emotion that we can't control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. Thats what it's like for me. I didn't plan on falling in love with you, and I doubt that you planned on falling in love with me. But once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. We fell in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. For me love like that has happened only once, and thats why every minute we spent together has been seared in my memory. I'll never forget a single moment of it.

"He stayed in the middle of the road for a long time, trying to catch his
breath, hoping she would turn around and come back to him, wishing
he hadn't let her go. Wishing for one more chance."
-Nicholas Sparks.

At the first kiss I felt something melt inside me that hurt in an exquisite way. All my longings, all my dreams and sweet anguish. All the secrets that slept deep within me came awake. Everything was transformed and enchanted, everything made sense.

Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They are shooting stars, spectacular moments of light from heavens, a fleeting glimpse of eternity and in a flash there gone

There hasn't been one day since you left where I haven't fought the urge to put you back in my life.

"Sometimes, I just don't feel the desire to be around anyone I am always around."

he put his arm around my waist today.
we dont talk, we havent for awhile.
we dont hate each other, we just aren't friends.

Look at where you've got yourself now.
You think the world is trying to bring you down,
you think that moving on means getting passed around,
but every move you make just takes you further down.

Even the people who never frown eventually break down.

I could feel the wanting catch up with me. But if I have to want it, it’s not really happening is it? It’s just more wishing that’s all. I wish I didn’t wish so much.

So I said between my smiles and my regrets "Don't let this be over." but you put your hand over my mouth and whispered "It already is."

Some thing had changed in me, even if I didn't know what it was just yet. All I could think was that with him… I felt alive for the first time. If only it could have lasted..

"And she sat there for hours thinking and recollecting on how things used to be. And she laughed, and she cried. And she couldn't help but think of what she wouldn't do to get them back to that way once again, when her life actually had a purpose."

I met a boy whose kiss I still feel somehow. Was it all for nothing? I’d rather not have known any of it than have it snatched away after a taste.

We all have an enormous capacity for believing in anything that will provide us with a bit of comfort.

My Life : <3

So, about the boy...well sunday, he messaged me and was like, oh i had so much fun, cant wait to see you again...then 2 hours later, he messaged me and was like, i think we should just be friends. haha. so there goes that..i knew i spoke too soon. Im working so much, i hate it. how are you?! (:

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And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd, cause these words are my diary screaming out loud. And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

When I'll be 87 you'll be 89, I'll still look at you like the stars that shine in the sky.
-"Mary's Song" by Taylor Swift.

Squint your eyes and look closer, I’m not between you and your ambition. I am a poster
girl with no poster. I am thirty-two flavors and then some. Life is a b movie, it’s stupid and
it’s strange - a directionless story and the dialogue is lame. I’m closing my eyes and I’m
spinning, spin me away, away. I leave for a living. Music’s just something I do on my way
out the door and I’d do almost anything once. This is one side; flip me over. I know I’m not
your favorite record, the songs you grow to love never stick at first. So I’m writing you a
chorus and here is your verse. No, it’s not the last time, cause I never could say no to you.
You sing about beautiful things, and all I want to do is believe. I traded my dreams for this
mess of memories and they just stopped working for me.

I woke up this morning, I found that I had a smile on my face.
I asked myself, "Whats this for?"
And I remembered you. And I thought of you.

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

I love that feeling. You know, the one you get when you take a deep breath and suddenly everything feels like it's going to be okay. When you're hopeless as can be, and life is going nowhere, there's those moments we have every now and then where we just stop, and we get this feeling, that can't be described, but you just.. you just feel like everything really is going to be okay. Like the world stopped spinning for a second, and everything was clear. I need more of those moments.

It was you that showed me who I am, and taught me how to stand for what I know is real. Now I'm breathing for the first time and I'm leaving all this behind. I've become what I am because of you. It was you.

I hummed out loud a melody that left the world without a sound. The quiet streets, just the whistling of the breeze, I want to be the air you breathe. When you can't hang on I’m all you need.

"she knew he was something special. it was different how he moved her.
because when he told her, "Goodnight" it felt like, "Hello."

everything im looking for, with you i've found
i'm hooked and don't want out, you've got me bound.
-Show me the skyline ; “Clocks and calendars”

I'm always on my way to somewhere else. Searching high and low to find myself. Stuck on that highway between here and there, I could be anywhere. You're like the eye of a hurricane. You are a constant in a world of change. You are the calm in the storm when life gets strange.

i haven't seen you in how many days?
i'm missing you so much in so many ways.
closing my eyes, you're still all that i see
nothing like distance will be stopping me
there's no going back now, i've fell to the ground.
i'm not getting up, cause it's you that i've found.
all these sudden emotions have taken me
to someone and somewhere i'd much rather be.
-Show me the skyline ; “Clocks and calendars”

My life (:
So, the concert was amazing.
Actually, this boy is amazing. I think i like him.
Actually, I know i do. It scares me. haha.
I guess we'll see how things go.

Im working the next seven days, 12 hours. so who knows
if ill be able to update, commment tho! (:

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And I've never been one to believe in love at first sight
but now I know it exists.

Because sometimes it’s easier to say, “I hate you,” than “I miss you, I wish we didn’t fight; I wish you would call me sometimes.” Because sometimes, it’s easier to think, screw life, screw work, screw everything, than admit that you’re overwhelmed and feel like you’re drowning. Because sometimes, it’s easier to admit the simple things than say the hard things and realize how much you’ve been struggling and how much you feel as if life has gone out of your control.

In the day by day collision called the art of growing up, there's an innocence we look for in the stars. To be taken to the younger days, when there was no giving up on the people we held closest to our hearts.

i miss you, i do. i love you. everyday,
i wake up and have this ache in my chest,
and sometimes i just sleep in because i know
when i wake up, you're not going to be there.

And when we meet, which I’m sure we will, all that was there will be there still. I'll let it pass and hold my tongue and you will think that I’ve moved on.

“I wrote the story myself. It’s about a girl
who lost her reputation and never missed it.”
- Mae West.

We were still young; I let you go like the paper airplanes. How can I explain that I’m lost without you around? What if I never lost you? I wouldn’t have to find you all over again. You’re the one I’ve always wanted, the one that I just cant live without.

I believe in love, in arguing, in jamming out by yourself in the car. I believe in smiling til your cheeks hurt and laughing until you cry. I believe in having someone tell you you're beautiful, dancing in the rain, and miracles. I believe in second chances, even if you've completely screwed up.

The only person who gets me won't even give me the time of day.
-Degrassi: The Next Generation.

You know that feeling? That feelings when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it's right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible? I want to believe that.
-Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist.

"there were nights where i was sure i wouldn't see the morining sun
and there were days that seemed so dark i couldn't wait for night to come.
i couldn't stand to think about how my life used to be and how without a single warning
it all slipped away from me. like a fool i thought that i could fight the shadows on my own.
to the dark i was no stranger but this was stronger than i'd known.
and by the time that i knew that i was in too deep, i'd gone too far. and the light that
used to guide me had faded from my heart and i found myself in places i thought i'd never go,
surrounded by strangers. i was so far from home."

 And if you close your eyes, we're always going to be that way; the way we were that night.

my Life:
well, things are interesting thats for sure.
That one boy came to my house on thursday. It was alright, i feel like all he wants to do is get in my pants, which isnt going to happen. so bye to him, i suppose. anyways, i went to a party on saturday where i only knew like, 3 people, it was kinda scary. haha, but i met a boy named Ben. He's cutee (:
Well we hung out all night and what not, and well he asked me to go to a concert with him on saturday night. Kinda cool. The problem? Well i was drinking that night, and i came home and my parents were up, so theyre pissed at me now, because i dont normally drink. so yeah, i hope they let me go. how are you alll?

EDIT: I got my carrr!

its a 2004 pontiac sunfire, & its red. Im sooo happy (:

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